Lord of the rings posters

Looks like my blog will be the only place I will be able to see my Lord Of The Rings posters after ebaying them. All will be sold by this time tomorrow on Ebay UK.

Christmas reflections

I often wonder where I would be if I had not met SK.

I joined a couple of dating sites before I met her. One was Adultwork a site for UK escorts. It took me ages to decide upon a booking. I had never visited an escort and really needed some bedroom fun at the time. When I finally did make a booking, I got no reply. The girl in question vanished off AW even though she had a feedback score of 26 and ticked all my 'enjoys' boxes. By the time she had vanished, (tried to book twice), I had met SK, and the rest is now history.

It Christmas time and time for family squabbles. I shudder when I think of some of the family parties and do's I've been to. There is an element of truth of about 'all Irish people like to drink', and I wish it wasn't true.

SK has said to me about my family. She said "I can't believe your family. I thought mine were bad"

Funny thing is I haven't yet met her folks, But I know there is an open invite to go to there on my own for Christmas. While she is working. I've chatted on the phone with her mum quite a bit. Frankly I can't afford the trip to Devon and back, and it would mean spending the night there without her. It does touch my heart that I am welcome by a family I've never met, even though I'm sure they're not perfect (SK often comments on their faults).

Last year SK & I went out with my brother for a drink after the new year. He has mental problems. First thing he said was 'I don't want to sit at this table' in the pub.Then he refused to talk to my girl when she was asking him some questions.Finally he ranted at me about her, when she went to the toilet. She stayed in there for 15min so we could have a chance to chat but he was raving nonsense at me.He told me she was unimportant and I should not have told her he had mental problems (he was wearing a baseball cap with a one inch thick strip of elastic under his chin keeping in on his head, so it doesn't blow off when cycling home. I won't tell you the rest of his outfit. but he does dress oddly).

Anyway, he said "I'm family, she's not important"I said "you've watched too much Eastenders, mate" and that is the short version of SK trying to get to know my mad brother and be a part of the family.

I'm looking forward to spending Christmas with my girl. I thought my xmas efforts last year were a bit pants, but SK just loved being with me and it was reassuring just to spend some time together.

xxx

Respect

We all want it and we all think we deserve it.

I want my Dad to treat me equally but he doesn't and never will.
He always talks over me. He puts me down. He never says anything supportive.
I stopped going round for family Sunday dinners in May because I could stand it any longer.
More than anything my partner SK has expressed her disgust at his attitude to me.

I also want more respect from SK. When we argue she sometimes loses her temper. She has hit me twice, and I deserve more respect than that. I have told her to get help or leave.

I love her, but cannot accept her violence. I have had enough of that from my Dad and won't put up with it from someone else.

'On my god my nickname is tripod because I have have a huge Johnson rod'

Sorry no cock pics here lol

Making things better

Its been fun making up with SK.We seem to be so much more in sync together again. She even put on her slutty school uniform outfit in the bedroom ;-)

She has again dodged out of seeing our GP to discuss anger issues. Hmmmmmph. I will insist when she is next off shift that she goes.

Its odd she can control her temper with others, but with me totally loses it during rows. I am not the one who has caused her all the pain she carries. She can control her temper at work and with other people.

Two days ago we were rowing about some minor things.

She said she had had enough of London and me and was leaving me.....

I tried to smooth things over by asking what was wrong, I touched her and tried to cuddle her.

She pushed me away, then out the blue, whacked me with her hand across my face knocking me back a bit. It was a blow with real force behind it.

I was 'stunned' for a moment.

Then I said "fine, you want to leave? Go! I am not living with someone who is violent".

I sat in the front room and ate the breakfast I had just finished cooking for both of us.

She cried...then came in the front room and stood in front of me.

She blamed me for making her loose her temper.

Called me patronising for telling her she had a choice about being violent.

Then asked "I want a cuddle. Why won't you get up a hold me?"

I said "because I don't want to be hit again. Touching you is what made you hit me. You had no reason to strike me"

We talked about anger issues, and my hating violence because my Dad used to knock me around as a kid. Then we made up.

I won't react to her violence. I won't strike back. I just stayed calm and told her to choose between getting help or walking out the front door. I had enough violence as a child to know I will not suffer it again, or accept the excuse of 'You made me loose my temper', I heard that enough from my Dad. Everyone has a choice about violence.

I know part of her BDSM kink is a way of dealing with her childhood, but I will not accept responsibility for her anger when she is spoiling for an argument.

I wonder if this post will be censored?

first 2 weeks of November 2007

My garden work has been progressing. I have built the lower part (base) of the concrete step for outside my back garden door. When I ripped out the patio I had nothing to step on to ;-)

The lower base part (ground level) is built and slowly setting. I still have the upper step to build. I forgot how long it takes 'sharp sand' to set properly. Its just like a sandcastle for the first few days and then rock hard weeks later.

We visited the Fireworks display on the Thames on the 10th of November. The website said the fireworks would last from 5pm to 5.30pm. We got there late and it all stopped at 5.15pm

On the the Bright side it has made SK say she would like to see the New Years Fireworks on the Thames; Last year she just wanted to stay in and not go out.

Staying in for a cuddle is great, but our plans to leave have made her more ready to view London's sights. Yesterday we went to the Natural History Museum, later this week we will visit the V&A Museum.

I got quite a bit of feedback about my interview technique. I need to keep my mouth shut about discussing my personal life and just be more enthusiastic about the job I'm being interviewed for. Its a shame we can't all be honest in interviews, but if I am competing with liars then I should remember to be expected to lie about the company and how much I want to work there.

SK is not happy about her Rabbit. It developed a fault to it kept cutting out when close to orgasm. She ordered a new one from a website using my Paypal account (my ebay junk paid for it) but the new mini one she got didn't work. The connectors inside it didn't touch so it wouldn't vibrate. I am sending it back today.

Ebay errors

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SK is visiting her folks in Devon this week. I have spent 2 nights apart from her and slept alone in my bed. Its time to change the sheets but I like the scent of her on the bedding, helps me feel as is she is there.Every night I am ready for bed around 11pm to 1am, But SK phones me for a long chat.

Its strange but these phone calls have been deep and meaningful. I think because we spend so much time together, there's more thinking time about what to say. Apart, SK has had time to think and plan before speaking to me. On the phone she is more thoughtful and precise about what she wants to say.When we are together she speaks as she thinks about things. On the phone, she has thought and mulled things over before chatting.

I quite like this because of our different natures. SK is impulsive where as I tend to plan things.One thing we agreed on recently was my will. I had written it out, but hadn't got it validated and posted off.

It needed to be signed in front of 2 witnesses and returned to the solicitors office. I got this sorted out on Monday. My problem had been that I needed two people who were not in the will to sign it. I had left a lot of small sums to friends and family so disqualified them from being a witnesses.My solicitor recommended using my Union Rep as a witness so I went to their office on Monday and my Rep found one other person to be a witness and it was signed and dated - Job Done.

Why is a 35yr old man writing his will. Well, I'm not ill or anything but if something does happen to me I don't want SK kicked out of my flat. I want to protect her legally. I know my parents have their own home, my brother is entitled to one from social services (if he ever tires of living with my parents) and I know my parents would ask SK to leave and then put my mentally ill brother in my home.

Sometimes you have to protect the ones you love. My brother who gets nothing in my will, would contest the will, but I wrote him and my parents a message in it to respect my wishes and accept them.

Do you like this painting. I've a dozen of Thomas Kinkade pictures I am flogging off on ebay.....

Naughty Pics

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its too early in the morning for this

Last night I didn't get much sleep.

I was randy and SK needed some sleep so I got out of bed at midnight and read my book in the front room for an hour. I looked at porn on the web but my favourite site kept crashing. I stumbled back into bed at 1am.

Its 8am now. I was woken at 5.20am by SK demanding a serious conversation.

"Whats going to happen if you die?"

"Have you sorted out your will yet?"

"Did you get it signed?"

My union helped me draft up my will. I just need to sign it in front of 2 witnesses, one of whom my solicitor preferrs to be my union rep. I have to go through my regional union rep, so that means booking an appointment to visit his office and getting it signed.

I do worry about SK. I wrote my will so my mum gets some cash and so do my friends but I leave my house & remaining property to SK. She is the love of my life and when I'm gone I know my parents will give my flat to my mentally ill brother and he will be tricked into signing it away to some con man. In other words my parents & brother don't need it, but I want to safeguard SK just in case something happens to me.

Yesterday I got very upset about the Polish careworker who got shot in a gun fight in Lewisham, south London. I don't know what I'd do if that happened to SK??? I think it must have been praying on her mind this morning.

5.20am is the wrong time for these questions.

I got grumpy and ignored her, then after sharp elbowing I answered.

Write it on a post-it note and put it on the fridge and I'll do it Monday I said

But what if something happens before you get it signed?

I don't plan to die today

But what if something happens

Write it on the fridge list and I will do it I said

I love her but she can be very annoying - Grhhh!!!!

She phoned me 30 min after leaving for work. It was to talk about money worries. I can't hear her as she walks and talks and she mumbles when she is upset - grhhhh!

I made her promise to talk to me when she gets home at 9pm tonight, but I know she won't be worrying about such things then. Its first thing in the morning that she has these thoughts. This is NOT the first time it has happened.

Healthy Living

I recently realized that I am almost vegetarian.

Past 2 days SK has complained about feeling constipated. I am also feeling bunged up.

Whats the one change in our diet?

Eating at BurgerKing for lunch. We got some money off vouchers through the letterbox and I'm tired of cooking.

Neither of us has had some proper junk food in ages, I guess our bodies couldn't take it ;-)

Would you like something that doesn't exist?

Would you like something that doesn't exist? Would it make you want it more?

In UK travel agents they advertise cheap holidays on cards in the window. When you go in they never have that holiday - its just sold, then they try to sell you a more expensive one.....

A more modern take on this con is advertising jobs that dont exist or advertising job training in IT with a guarantee of 6 months work afterwards. The con is you have pay for the training course, and after your 6 months of work your back to square one of being unemployed.

Cutting a long story short I applied for 4 admin jobs on Monday. I sent my CV via email to each of them and got a reply from one today.

I have to register with a job agency but they don't seem to remember the job reference number I gave them. Does the job exist? Or is it just a con to get more people on their job registered database? I hate giving out my personal details any companies, but if I want a new job I have to do it.

Grrrh - I wish that sports company would hurry up with giving me a second interview soon. I quite like them even though the pay isn't that great.

Malathion

I feel ill.

Both SK & I dosed ourselves with Malathion lotion again last night. Its been a week since the first dose. Hopefully it will kill off the mite invasion which is scabies.

SK feels guilty about bringing them home from work, but not so guilty that she did any hoovering or housework. I am washing all the clothes (again) that have been worn once and left lying around (mostly hers) and then when 24hours have passed I get to treat myself to a shower and wash this stinking stuff off.

We chatted again about this second interview I am due for this week. I have told her, if I get the job it will mean she has to do half the housework. She has agreed, but I know how slothsome she can be about such things.

I love but wish I didn't have to nag her so much.

Why do I feel like I am her mother all the time?

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वेअर्य tiredness from curry?

SK went to work at 6.30 and I slept on until 10am।

I couldn't understand why I have been so sleepy the past few days.

Then SK said the reason. Anemia. She phoned me from work this morning and has been doing that a lot lately. She hates her workplace.

I have eaten so many veggie meals that I lack iron in my diet. I guess its time to start buying bacon and eating bacon sandwiches for breakfast.

I do all the cooking (I luv to cook) but frankly can't be bothered to cook 2 different meal types. Ergo last night was veggie curry (onions, baby sweetcorn, mange tout, brocolli, garlic, pataks curry sauce) with rice (rice, lemon dressing, parsley,) and garlic & corrander naan bread with lime pickle and garlic pickle.

I think I will cook meat meals when SK is working night shifts. I don't miss meat much, but I hate oversleeping for no reason.

SK loves the garlic pickle from Pataks. She reeked of garlic last night. I dread to think what others will say about her breath at work today ;-)

Hope you like the pic. It sums up how SK & myself met and fell in love ;-)

Early morning wake up call

Got a phone call from SK's work place at 7.30am
She agreed to work today but forgot about the extra shift.

She is so pissed off with that place but needs to stay there for a while longer.

Cat Visit

Tomorrow SK & I planned to visit my cat to see how he has settled in with my parents. He had to go because of his tapping on the bedroom window at 4am when we were sleeping.. He has some sort of attention problem. Hopefully living with my parents other cats will stop him feeling so lonely ;0)

I don't think we will visit him tomorrow. I don't want my parents to know about my job interview last thursday or that there is a planned 2nd interview next week. Frankly my parents comments to help will just jinx me, and my dads idea of helping is to wind me up about it and make me angry; So I'll skip visiting the cat until after my second interview.

I miss that cat.....

Friends reunited or Not ;-)

I was looking at FriendsReunited.co.uk.
I left it some months ago.
I deleted my profile when an Ex sent me a message asking lots of nosey questions about my relationship with SK.

Its been months since that happened and when I tried to rejoin I was told I can't because my profile was previously removed for being abusive. I was sure I had deleted it, but maybe it did get wiped by 'Those in charge', and I only thought I had wiped it in disgust.

I find it strange that my profile may have been classed as abusive. I used no swear words and filled EVERY section out as completely as I could, (unlike most others).
I did post a message to my ex on it saying 'thanks for getting in touch, hope everything works out for you' which was a lot less abusive than the cheating b*tch deserves.

Maybe just wiping my profile is enough to deny me access.

Who knows?

I am curious about a group of friends I lost touch with, I'd like to see if they updated their profiles, but I don't want to make up a mock profile just so I can look up my old school friends.....

I've got their addresses so I can send them Christmas cards.
Maybe I'll try to re-register next year ;-)

I know I am kidding myself and I would look at my Ex's profile even though she is nothing but trouble.....

Ever loved someone who was bad for you; Poison to your soul, but you still keep caring even after they broke your heart?????

Fickle Woman.....

After more than 6 months of talking about moving to Devon SK has said, "We don't have to move if you don't want to".

Originally the move was first discussed because of her dislike of London. She may have felt she was manipulating me, but truth is, life outside of London appeals to me. Every day I see fewer people on the streets whose first language is English. Everyday I see less and less white people living in my area. Every day I feel like a foreigner in my own country. I want to move to a place with clean air and people whose knowledge of European languages comes only from their holidays abroad.

I have told her that I want to move to Exeter even though she now says we don't have to.....

I have to say that at first I wondered if her wanting to return to Devon was a way of breaking up with me. She seemed surprized I was all for moving and said "But your Ex asked you to move to Manchester and you didn't want to?"

I explained to her that even though I am a boring olde fart who harps on about the past, the fact remains I would never move to Manchester, because my relationship with my Ex was a destructive one. I was convinent for her, and not someone she was 'in love' with, even though she liked me, and shared my bed, she never had deep feelings for me. I was used, and I knew it.

I know SK loves and NEEDS me, and even though I talk about past experiences, I would never want to return to my past. I want a future with SK and I hope that will be in Devon NOT London.....

Picnic in Park

There's a chill in the air. Leaves are falling and Sept 16th looks like the last time we will be picnicing this year.....

I've lost a lot of weigh, but will I ever loose that double chin?

Probably about as much chance as my hair growing back lol

Car Mechanic Disaster

One recently development was my parents putting their old car back on the road. It was taken off the road and put in storage for 2 years. It was a 22yr old BMW which had 2 careful owners. It was more reliable than their 5yr old BMW which has been problematic.

All it needed was a MOT check & service and it would be road worthy. Because it was over 20yrs old it was classed as a classic car and so tax free to run so long as you didn't exceed the milage limit per year, to be a tax free classic car.

I keep saying WAS.....

It caught fire in the garage while being serviced.The car was a burned out wreck by the time the firemen arrived.The garage admitted liablity but only want to pay the 'book value' of the car which is only a few hundred.

I have told mum to sue for a replacement car and compensation but the legal advice she has gotten so far is they are entitled to offer only the valued of the car. She could take them to court but that will cost money, and she has no confidence in courts since her experience of the Irish court system.....