Fickle Woman.....

After more than 6 months of talking about moving to Devon SK has said, "We don't have to move if you don't want to".

Originally the move was first discussed because of her dislike of London. She may have felt she was manipulating me, but truth is, life outside of London appeals to me. Every day I see fewer people on the streets whose first language is English. Everyday I see less and less white people living in my area. Every day I feel like a foreigner in my own country. I want to move to a place with clean air and people whose knowledge of European languages comes only from their holidays abroad.

I have told her that I want to move to Exeter even though she now says we don't have to.....

I have to say that at first I wondered if her wanting to return to Devon was a way of breaking up with me. She seemed surprized I was all for moving and said "But your Ex asked you to move to Manchester and you didn't want to?"

I explained to her that even though I am a boring olde fart who harps on about the past, the fact remains I would never move to Manchester, because my relationship with my Ex was a destructive one. I was convinent for her, and not someone she was 'in love' with, even though she liked me, and shared my bed, she never had deep feelings for me. I was used, and I knew it.

I know SK loves and NEEDS me, and even though I talk about past experiences, I would never want to return to my past. I want a future with SK and I hope that will be in Devon NOT London.....